I feel horrible. I’ve never gone online with so much reluctance before. All the pictures from my friend’s Bash are everywhere to be seen. Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr. It’s like they’re haunting me and I can’t even browse anything without seeing a single photo of them having fun without me. I tried my hardest to get my grandmother’s permission so I could go with them. She wasn’t impressed, she wasn’t happy. I knew then and there that she wasn’t going to allow me. I feel like a bird with handcuffs. I could fly, but I’ll need a key to do so. Why can’t I go independently anywhere? Even in the nearest of places, I just can’t seem to go! I’m two years away from College and I’m still tied up? I can’t see a legitimate reason why she wouldn’t allow me. All I asked for was a ‘Yes’ and she couldn’t say that to me, even when I’m practically begging? The more I begged the more she infuriated. It’s so effing hard to ask her of anything that includes me going out without any relatives with me. Way to treat me like a grownup.